Weight Loss and Not Drinking
The truth is when I quit drinking I thought my extra weight would just “fall off”. I was drinking so many calories in wine, it would only make sense that in like, 6 weeks I would be back down to my high school weight.
Ah, not so much. I am almost 18 months alcohol free and I am still fighting for every last ounce. It’s annoying and frustrating. I had two long conversations with people who ‘get me’ yesterday. One had to listen to me gripe about the scale and food and exercise while the other one got to hear me talk about how uncomfortable I am being in a place of contentment and goal achievement.
Good times.
But all of these feelings I get to feel now (yay sobriety) makes me extremely self-aware. Even though I wanted to throw the baby out with the bathwater out of frustration, I ran 22 minutes straight today, and took it as a big win. I wasn’t going to throw away 6 weeks of consistent work to sit in my dirty diaper today.
Then, I put away my scale. Like away, away. I’m not sure when I’ll bring it back out, but I’m sick of it dictating how my day starts out.
There’s no denying I have lost weight since I told the wine witch to pack sand; pictures don’t lie. And I’ve never been this consistent in my health. It’s the hard days, like today, I was never able to push through; that fuck it button was just too…there.
While the likes and loves certainly boost this girl’s ego, it’s not my intention for posting this. Change is possible, it doesn’t even have to be that hard, but it does have to be consistent. I HAD to change my mindset. It’s true that giving up alcohol made that easier for me but I also had to do ALL the things that made me roll my eyes…a lot. All the breathing, feeling, meditation, consistency, patience practicing, talking and sitting with those God damn feelings. If you’re looking for a change, and think you can’t, actually you can. And if you need help, hit me up. I’m not sure what I’ll be able to do, but I have some amazing resources that I would be happy to share.
The truth is, even though it feels uncomfortable right now, I literally have everything I’ve asked for. And I’m just going to enjoy it today.
We take a deep dive in to this on Episode 13 of our podcast, The Happiest of Hours.
